i have yet again lagged. but i've got down time doing some laundry.

a few things to take note of over the course of these past days.

i'm glad that i've made my commitment to trying to get my life back on track.
exercise, controlling myself, trying my best.

saturday was a pretty big road bump.

it was a pretty bad experience to say the least.
i've been crossed before, but never like this.
meeting the illy wasn't the best introduction.
at first it didn't seem that bad,
but then my world just took a bad spin.
my mind was playing games with me.
it felt like there was 4 of everything.
it was all a blur.
my mind pretty much flipped and everything was opposite directions.
yet i was still conscious of my surroundings.
i know that people were trying to take care of me.
i know that people were laughing.
i know i couldn't distinguish anything.
all i wanted to do was knock out.
from then on, all i knew was i somehow ended in my bed.
i finally know how it feels to be effed up hard.
it's not a very good experience.
i don't think i want to do that again.

on a lighter note,
weather has been gorgeous.
pcn is really coming together.
it's going to be an exciting month.