Well, it's been a while, but it's back to blogging again. I got the inspiration from Sarah. Thanks! I finally realized how much it helps to put your thoughts into words. Well it's almost the end of summer. And what a summer it had turned out to be, even for how dull it's been. I would probably think that this has been one of the most crazy dramatic summers if my teenage life. It's been one hell of a roller coaster ride I must say. Well summer hadn't really hit me until like a week going into vacation. But when it did, I realized that it was looking to be a good summer with the fact that I could drive and I'm older, I guess. So plans were made, unsure whether they'd come through. Nothing too exciting had happened at first. But then came an unfortunate day. We had been going through some rough times for a while now, at least from what I was feeling. And I guess some times you just have to let it go. There are so many sayings: "Let it go. If it comes back, it's yours." "There are plenty of fish in the sea." I don't know what finally made me let go. Was it because I was tired of it? Did I fall out of love? I'm not so sure. But I think reading this one book by the Dalai Lama The Art of Happiness really helped clarify my thoughts and for me to be able to sort out my thoughts and figure out what was best. I think that book seriously changed my life and gave me a whole new perspective on life. I know it sounds crazy, but things can really get to you. The ending of the relationship turned out okay I guess. But it does seem kind of weird about how it was after and how it is now. I mean I don't get her at all. I don't know what she wants. But one of my friends mentioned that perhaps she's not ready yet. I can believe that. After all, we were together for a long time. And now we barely even talk. Was it really that bad? But that's how things supposedly "worked out." So it's out of my control I guess. She does seem to be doing fine. I as well.

Other than that, summer has been spectacular I guess. I've become reacquainted with old friends and became closer to a few. Also made some new friends as well, which is always a plus. Pre-school buddy. After how long? Like 13 years or something, we finally meet each other again. Now we're good friends. That makes me happy. And new acquaintances have become good friends, who I know have my back and stuff...hopefully. But I trust them. Hmm. I'm surprised I've been going out a lot, and most of them are spontaneous, which is so not like me. But I like it. I guess this world has so much to offer. I so need a job. I'm using all my money when I go out. And gas. Oh man, I hate being the driver. But it's the only way I guess. Summer has been coming by fast. But the nights are long and plenty to do while you're awake. But then you wake up to realize you slept through half the day already. Oh well. It's worth the late night chats and talks. I'd write more, but I have writer's block?

Don't you like how you can talk to people you don't really know, but feel like you've been friends forever.

P.S.

dangit sarah. your xanga entry is a lot more interesting than mine. haha i started laughing again just reading it. buuut yeah its seriously almosy 5AM and wtfizzle. hopefully i will get rich from my commercial idea and best-selling novel and buy sarah a ds lite and a cheap used game, and some potato bug repellent. yay. i didnt think i'd stay up so late. but yes.