So it's been a pretty long time. Guess that's kind of an understatement but oh well. It's just been a hectic couple of days and everything has just been going at light speed. I guess a quick recap. Let's see there was grad night with the laserlights and the clubs and all the craziness. Then I finally graduated from high school. Whew! How time flies. 4 years just like that. Deep thoughts are coming. But let's finish the recap. So after graduation, there was my grad party. Pretty dang awesome I would say. Hmm not much to update I guess. Too many details to jot down and keep track of. But right now, I can say that life right now is really really good. Summer looks to be the best one yet. So lots and lots of busy plans ahead and hopefully I'll give an update every now and then.

So basically, the thoughts of finally being done with high school and graduating and how four years have passed have kept me wondering for a while. I reflect from time to time about the past four years. I look back and see myself four years ago, as an innocent little freshman and the kind of person I was. I look at me now, and I hardly recognize that person. I think it would be safe to say I am a totally different person from before. I'm even surprised at how much I think I have changed. All this change is probably due to all the things I have experienced throughout the past four years. Relationships, the forming and losing of friendships, struggles and hardships of life, family, and love. I think my experiences throughout all of these and more have helped shaped my identity somewhat. But I can't help but wonder if this is the same person who I will be throughout college too. Do I really know who I am? Or am I still struggling to find my place, my purpose in the world? Sometimes I feel that maybe I don't deserve the life I have now just because I feel I haven't done the greatest of things. But moving on, I'm going to be enetering a totally different atmosphere, a different town, a fresh start, something new. I'm both excited and scared of the future. I can't wait for the many things I yet have to experience. But then again, I fear that maybe I'll lose touch with all those close to me. Like maybe at first things will go well, but later on I might enjoy my new life more and leave the old life I worked so hard to define behind. In this world, life is a double-edged sword. Either side you pick, it will come with certain consequences. Hopefully, I'll have the strength and perserverance to be able to manage a new life. It's going to be on heck of a ride. That's what she said.